1ST audrey, she went to my sand rugby championship this weekend and played a little. She was catty/flirty with me though the way she is with everyone else, but shes never like that with me. It was a step forward. It was just dumb little things i would be like kiss my ass and she would make kissy noises. she told me to shut the fuck up at one point(joking around) i told her fuck you and she was like anytime sexy. eventhough it isnt serious, i like it. i sat in class with her on friday, it was fun. i found out shes going to go up to NY with wheeler at the end of the summer. I mean i guess i expected it, i want things to work out with them but then i dont. And audrey has been hanging out with Ashley some too, so i really dont have a shot in hell. But audrey is considering going to grassfirld next year, i dont know why but im not going to object. (i will be at grassfield next year, a new high school)

2ND Army Boy finally got his war orders, hes being sent to Baghdad in October, scared

3RD Fabio, ugh i feel like im being sucked in again. Im starting to think about him and miss him and i dont know what to do about it. Ive talked to him online the past two weeks more times than i have since December. Honestly i miss him, i want to be with him. But he is such a good person right now, everything is good, but i dont know if thats him, if hes truely happy, i dont know what he feels in his heart of hearts. he wouldnt tell me how he feels anyways and it could all change in a second, its easy to say we dont care about each othe when we are 3000 miles apart, but face to face i think there will always be an attraction. But i really miss him, even if its just as a friend and i confidant