Im not girl, but not yet a woman....

School is driving me crazy I need a break. I want it to be over, but then i only have a few days until I go back for summer school. thats if i go to summer school, if i get a job on campus so i can afford it. But i am very ready for school to be over, then also there will be camping with jon. Im so happy for that, happy to spend some alone time with him. after everything from the past two weeks, i just want it to go away. Its not necessary, i wish he wouldnt have found out about it, it was dumb i shouldnt have done it, but i didnt want to lose him and i dont want it to make our relationship even worse. I think he is always going to wonder if i am cheeting on him now. i love him, and i really want to be with him forever. that sounded so cliche. i want to be camping with him, in the wilderness. it will be exciting.