Sabes que...estoy a tus pies!

Boyfriend, i think i have written about him before, jon. He is pretty amazing, im pretty amazing. Jus sometimes, i dont know what to do or say to him, when he says things like "i dont see how you can fit into my future" it crushes my heart, and i know he doesnt mean it like he says it, but it just hurts and i really love him, and i know it sounds soon to say that but i do and i know i do becuase i have dated alot of people, and i know he is special he is different, he makes me smile and laugh and feel amazing all of the time, and i know he cares about me because i can feel it in the way he touches me and the way he talks to me...but sometimes, i just dont get him. We got in a pseudo-fight yesterday and it just made me really sad, not angry, because i dont understand him, or understand why he was mad at me. Im so afraid to lose him becuase if he ever realizes how unique and bautiful he really is he will see he can do so much better than me. now writing about this i just want to snuggle up with him, especially because its rainy. And now, he might not have housing for next year.... i dont know what he is going to do about that, hes thinking about getting an apartment, i dont know i think its good he lives on campus but i would love for him to have his own room and things.  i dont know, it reall isnt my business im already involved with him enough, i feel like im suffocating him